Class of 2011

Class of 2011

Graduation day was just super hectic! 
-Woke up late and missed the bus that goes to campus
- My graduation shoes were killing me- I got blisters even before we arrived at the Cathedral
- My mum whatsapped my dad that they are watching the ceremony thru streaming :) I am glad they get to watch it too~ esp. my mum ( I secretly hoped she cried in happiness :) )
- I lost my dad after the ceremony and only found him just as we are suppose to get on the bus back to campus ( I feel really2 bad about this--)
- Things got better when my dad starts talking and cracking jokes with Kat's parent during the reception
- Starts crying when some people went around for hugs and goodbyes before leaving the reception
- Kat nearly cried when she saw me crying like a baby--
- Addy did not come to the reception hehe her loss because her favourite lecturer Jason went around to ours and we took a photo with him :) (and chris stokes too!)
- Stupidly forgotten that I have to return the robe by the set time, ran all the way up the hill (in my heels) to DM building to find that the robe ppl left a few minutes ago. 
- Panicked and decided to talk to the security people up in reception - they were soooo nice and helpful, they (as well as the people in charge of graduation) help me return the robes back to Exeter, which saves me from paying the fines set by the robe company. 


Kat and her parent gave us a ride back -- I love her parent as much as I love kat :) 


Our after-lecture lunch at the stannary, post-seminar Costa coffee sessions, Indian food delivery during sleepovers, countless breakfasts at Willie's Dynamite during the weekends & pre-gym tea at the Cavendish~ Good food and great friends :) 


I love them to bits even though sometimes I do not understand their jokes or references to British TV or figures..


Lost in Translation :)..so much so that they started recording all the silly, random things I say~ :)


anyways yea, this is just me reminiscing the good ol' times..now all of us are busy with the path that we each choose to take..


Addy & Cinders are doing their PGCE at the moment and Kat is working in London :)) 


me? I am doing what I always wanted to do Alhamdulillah :)


Salaam

I'm thankful

So, that was my first post for 2012 :) Alhamdulillah sampai jua to this year :))

I have so much to be thankful for actually~~

Last year, after handing in my dissertation, I had so many doubts and I worry about where I will end up. I was ready to accept the fact that it was not my rezeki to do MA.

Alhamdulillah, I got the scholarship and a place at Leeds :D - One of the best Uni for English and definitely top 3 for my course~~ when I was applying for my undergrad, Leeds was actually one of the University I applied to but I did not manage to get in and so I went to Exeter. But now hehehe kana bagi the chance to be part of the amazing English department - which gives me access to the centre for post-colonial studies & also to Leeds Humanities Research Institute or LHRI :)

Apart from that, I get to live with two amazing girls :) whom I have known for over 11 years now and they help me bravis in so many aspects, and they are so sabar melayan my karenah which i admit does not befit a 22 year old. Alhamdulillah~ we have our own jokes and 'drama' hehehee..

Masyallah, if I could list all the things that He gives me, that list is going to be soooo long~
                 He gives me another chance, that is all I can say lah.
                            He gives me in Leeds, what was lacking in Falmouth--
              The three-year wait was definitely worth it :)

In our first year, Z and me constantly cakap how we wish we were in the same Uni, in the same city..this wish was finally granted late last year :) jgn kan ckp same uni or city saja, same house yo~~

I always cakap how I miss cakap Brunei and how going to London is my only chance of actually interacting with Bruneians~ Nahhh..byk kali ah Bruleeds ani..

& He gives me clarity :) in various aspects...

Alhamdulillah :)

Another thing that I am thankful for is that my mum graduated from her MSc dah last December :) I am so proud of her~ she worked really really hard :') If my mummy can do it, why can't I? kan kan? :) my mum is definitely one of my best friends~ :'/ I miss her & babah jua..

waaaaaaa i want to go homeeeeee..

2012 already :)

I was thinking of ditching this whole blogging thing because I have a tumblr now (*upgrade*) BUT it is not the same. This blog and my old multiply one tells my story -- remind me of where I have been and what have I done.

So yes I'm back and Insyallah will try to post more -- and oh, i think having all these new apps really defeats the purpose of blogging sometimes. I mean, you can share your thoughts and activities in Instagram through photos, updates through Twitter and then there's Path :)..

This is such a crazy world where we just share too much..at one point, in the near future, nothing is private any more. to be honest, I don't tweet that much any more unless i got tweeted or I have super interesting thing to say..lol..& oh, facebook? is an effective way of getting in-touch and all..BUT i'm kinda tired of it.

the worse thing is that despite how i'm sick of all these social apps, I can't bring myself to delete or freeze my account just yet. WHAAAA...dilemma 2012

I should not have sign up for Path - but then I sign up for it wayyyyyy before it started to become popular, it was one of the first app i got early 2011. I didn't realise that it would eventually catch-on.~

I need a boost.


I've  been feeling like I don't matter...


I've got nothing to offer...


I need a boost.

Dear Housemates

Before I left -- I made a book detailing my journey and the people I get to share it with :) 

My housemates among others. 

We all had our differences, our own principles and attitudes. 

Though we do get annoyed at each other, we still have enough respect to not cause unnecessary commotions.

Okay fine-- something did happen

But 

I do believe we all learnt a lot from each other - not just about one another but about ourselves

who we are and what we want from life in general and specifically--

One of my closest buddy is Clare. 

She cakap we are so opposite -- i'm the good one and she's the naughty one. 

But we work well -- we can run around and rule the world.

Banar plang, sometimes we do get on each other punya nerves

we learn how to deal with it and talk it out somehow..

Anna is my advisor -- my impartial listener who always tell me as it is but nada roughly lah..

she is my motivator.

she knows when I need a compliment or two -- (time when i have no self-confidence and morale is low)

Megha is bittersweet. Depends on who you are and how you are, you might not be able to handle how direct she can be about things. she's one tough cookie- and i think she will see that as compliment, which she should because it is.

life works in strange, funny ways. 

I am glad my  life gets to collide with these three individuals. 

they helped me grow.

and I hope i managed to give them back what they have given me.

Thank you girls & I wish you all the best in everything-- don't forget to keep in touch :)

Friends always. 

This used to be my home for two years. 

Now i'm homeless dahhhhh, moved out for good on the 25th and I went straight to London from then. 

It was pretty sad and difficult to actually pack up my things and clear it out. my room felt empty without my posters, my little tidbits, my stuffed toys etc.

But the last few days of being in Falmouth were amongst the best.

The boys were nicer and we see them more often than usual that week.

firstly, we had a small gathering when Clare made her first lunch...it was the first time that the boys heard me sing lol and also Nisah and Shamsa..my housemates by then were already used to me singing..

It was not planned at all--- Dan was like 'ok, let's sing...' after the lunch and he grabbed Clare's guitar and started strumming. i was nervous like shit because usually when we jammed, its only me and him and sometimes Clare if she doesn't get bored by how difficult it is for both of us to choose a song that suits both of   

 us. I often ask for Adele's punya lagu but he doesn't really like except for "Set fire to the rain"...

                             Anyways we did 'Patience' by Take That, then hehehehe my favourite 'Part of your world' which is from the Little Mermaid and later 'Falling for you' by Colbie. I didn't sing well on the last song...I still find it difficult to shift from low to high notes and I still have trouble with my tempo.

everyone stayed from 2 pm (when the lunch started) till 9 pm :) just having fun chilling n playing card games..later we all decided to go to the cinema and catch 'Bad teacher'..it was ok ok kind of movie..

I stayed over at rumah nisah because it was already late when the movie finished and it was a saturday night. so takut kan balik rumah alone so i slept over at their place and clare stayed at dan's.

Then came SUSHI NIGHT!!  Basically Megha requested the boys to make sushi for us so they came and brought the ingredients and all 8 of us were involved in making all the food for that night..i was in charge of the mochi and tempura lol..the mochi is rather time-consuming but its something that i can make again in the future. we made ice-cream mochi in 3 flavours: strawberry, vanilla & chocolate. I was having trouble making a thin mochi wrap so Dan helped me out. Megha, Anna and Robert and sometimes Dan were making them sushi rolls. Whilst Felix and Clare were making the chicken teriyaki and the rice. Akshan came late and he fried half of the tempura and i did the other half. All in all, it was a rather productive day and we only sat down to eat at about 11 pm. it took us 4 hours to make everything..then they played poker and then they got drunk and the rest is history as they said lol. Someone became the Invincible Hulk! & we didn't sleep until 5 am as we all stayed up to watch the sunrise at the park nearby my house. But the weather was awful and the sun didnt cme out until 7/8 am..

the Night before three of us were meant to leave home (megha, me, anna)-- we had our last dinner at Mali Thai :'( we been going there since first year and it ws the place where we had our first dinner as a group :)..so yea it was for old time sake but the boys were a bit odd-ish, talking about games n computers...anyhow then they followed us home and they taught me how to play poker. for a first timer, i was pretty lucky and i won a lot but i didn't win pulang lol. it was just really fun to hang out with them for the last time di UK like that as students...I definitely will miss them tu...

oh well...

Drama Drama Drama

My life since back dari Brunei over the christmas break...

Drama Drama Drama..

Basically kan all these time i kept on saying how nothing ever happens in Falmouth in general & my life specifically..NAHHH mcm2 tia..

Results not so good :/...applied to 3 universities alrdy but if bukan rezeki, i guess i would be teaching by this september or october..unless they want me to do PGCE first, if that's the case..i hope my degree would be good enough to go to Oz to do it..Brisbane, i hope i can call you home if plan A doesn't work out..