tonyte

Just cme back from a doa tahlil at my tangah's house in Lambak.

It wasn't bad or annoying as I thought it would be.

You see the thing with gatherings esp. when my mum isn't here is that some aunties can be soooo penyibuk and kdg2 luan kan menyuruh itu ani.

Maybe I have lots of 'caring' aunties but most of the time, they just annoys me with their kepo'ness and perhaps i'm paranoid, but they kinda always seem to wanna minimise whatever achievement you have so that their own kids won't look bad in comparison. hahahah what a long sentence but devil may care..

maybe I am the only one yg ada aunties like these...oh well..not all aunties are bad.

I simply love some of my aunties,,aunties that were esssential part of my growing up whilst my mum n dad took turn to further their education overseas..

but yes no one will love me as much as my parent loves me...hmm...I think my parent do love me ..hmm..should i ask them?:p...nahhh..they definitely loves me..at least i can be sure that there's 2 ppl in this world who loves me unconditionally..:)

Hahaha anyways, so tonight i got to see cousins from my mum's side..I used to be totally close to all of them growing up but since we moved to Tutong, its definitely hard to hang out with them like we used to when we're kids. I get to manja2 with a number of nieces n nephews..hahah yes, im the one yg manja2 with them..I love it when kids come to you n just be totally comfy with you despite them having met you probably once or twice in a year hehee...

In comparison to my cousins balah my dad, my cousins yg mum's side rarely asks me about me being in uk n my experiences so far..i guess they aren't bothered. When i first pergi ke uk, no one from my mum's side went to hantar me...except for zee's mum which doesn't really count as she was seeing off zee. They did call to say goodbye and I kinda understand why they cnt make it...most of my relatives buat biscuits during puasa so i think they were busy making cookies masa that time.

I have nothing more to say lah than that...

it's scary how distant i already am from some cousins who i practically grew up and play with..i do miss them but they are no longer the same. I don't share their life anymore, neither do they.

hmmm...let's see...anyways im so knackered..arghhh...