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I realised I haven't updated my blog for like 2 weeks now--

Not that there's not a lot going on....too much going on that I just have to put a 'be right back' sign on my blog..

I really don't want to talk in details as to what's been bothering me lately..

Death had been bothering me lately...annoyingly peeking its head into my life, playing a game or two..it's inevitable i know but i choose to be in denial of it..for this particular moment..

My only happy source: my mum is back from aussie..hearing what happened to my nini, she took the nxt flight home (kinda..) and yea she's here now...i cherish every seconds i get to spend with her now because it would be a really really long time until i get to see her after this...next easter or maybe next summer coz our holidays doesn't clash...

and oh a close friend told me i'm pretty insensitive to other people's feelings...mcm kana stabbed bah my heart ahh...maybe i'm a bit different now, maybe it seems its always about me but hey, to say that i'm self-centred is just soooo mean and wrong and untrue..what does he know kan?

maybe i get sick of ppl walking all over me, trampling my emotions and taking a mickey out of my intentions..i'm not saying i'm a very good girl yg kana victimised saja but the truth is...sometimes one have to put one's interest or feelings above others...ndakan kan please ppl saja and refuse yourself some well-deserved happiness..eeeee...mental ku...

i like it when ppl are honest with me but i so don't appreciate it when you said it, but doesn't wish to explain where exactly did i go wrong...how can i learn to correct myself ,when you don't bother to show me where my flaws are located exactly?

eeeeeeeee....sasak ku...apparently i'm self-centred for not want to layan him talk about how much i changed, how much diff i am from this one particular relative and of how i'm being insensitive for saying that i don't enjoy his fav. movie...arghhhh..

seriously we are having one communication breakdown...

i hope this doesn't last because i already reserved a spot for him on my 'friends for keeps' list and i dont want to see seven years of somewhat tense friendship goes down the drain...