I've just read Fiyyah's latest blog (which is awesome btw, thank you for the reminder :) ) and that made me reflect back on the things i learnt and exposed to, for the past months..

I learnt so many things about myself and how i am with/to other people -- byk kali dah di uji my principles, slalu dah kana question that sometimes it gets a bit too much.

I would like to be a better person, i really do - byk lagi kan di pelajari and di fahami..one might say, by being here, i 'm learning how to appreciate what was given back home - the hard way~

Some people kalau kemari try to make excuses, not to do this and that..mcm susah bah living the right way, tapi sebenarnya, kitani sendiri yg make it difficult..

If nada halal meat, jadi vegetarian or eat seafood sja tah...

atu yg paling menyedihkan actually..when kitani sendiri menghalalkan apa yang di haramkan dlm Agama.. bila di tanya kenapa, katanya dlm Agama, if nada halal meat, mkn tah sja apa yg ada..ckap Bismillah saja

I know this is nothing new - but when i first encountered someone yg bagi this reason, when i was in my first year, i was like 'suka hati jua...adakan tu dlm Al-Quraan, salah interpret kali'..

But entah ah, atu choicenya kali..yg calinya ia yg bertanya kenapa i don't pakai hijab..

When people you know, asks you that..i can answer with calm but when strangers, people you just met, ask you that -- i feel mcm i been stabbed, it bothers me a lot but i'm trying to change it into something positive..i'm seeing it as both a reminder from Allah, 2 strangers in a row asking me the same question..that got to be something..

hmm..once in Bristol, once in Turkey..

I want to wear tudong properly- i want to wear it, not to please anyone, but only sebab i want to please Allah. I don't want to wear it - on and off - i want it to be a permanent addition to my image. I'm not there yet- I am still otw, Insyallah I will change for the better.

Someone told me that lebih baik we change slowly, rather than doing it too fast and maybe losing steam/interest when you reach there- tarusnya karang that change would just be a temporary one.. Thank you for the good advice yea :D

Talking about change, i need to change my mindset about revision- like NOW~ hahaha this one change i need to do it fast sebabnya Time waits for no one..and i desperately need to do well this time around...

its time to kick-ass :) and learn at the same time..

Salam