marah ku

Hari ani - rasa kan smacking bah ia punya face..seriously, saya bukan orang yg mental like that but ulahnya atu membagi orang marah saja. Regret ku agree kan tinggal serumah dgn ia ani, luan offensive bah ia tu..dari the first day dah. masa mula2, truk nie truk..lapas tu masa xmas n sblum easter okay ia..ani mcm apa ulahnya. aku decide utk stay d bilik ku pun jadi masalah baginya...andang jua ia tau atu yg aku memang suka stay n bljr di bilik, nda ku dpt blajr d bawh arh bilik tamu mcm ia..atu satu ah, lapas tu...ntah sasak kali ia, coz aku ckp aku broke dah but aku masih kn planning kan travelling..nda tau apa yg trigger ia, ia give me the cold shoulder dah..not that i care but ia nda bothr pun to hide, dapan2..yg mcm i told ia yg im going home awal so mcm party perpisahan utk my other teman serumah had to be before i leave..lapas tu tarus ia ckp, nya perfect timing tu nya aftr that utk parti drumah yg besar2an..jaling2 lagi tu..atuuuuu...

ia slalu put dirinya above orang lain-- kalau aku sedih or crying about ani kah atu..caranya mengcomfort nah, critanya pasal ia ani kuat..nda pernah give up bla bla bla..kirakan saying aku nie weak lah nie, stupid kah..coz fikir like that..nda ku tau how ia mcm ani ulahnya..hmm pokoknya i'm a spoiled scholarship brat from ia punya eyes..

bila im all marah2 like this, mcm2 bad things kluar tu..but everytime i do it, Alhamdulillah kana bagi jua kesdaran that biarkan tia like that..if aku mcm atu pun, curse ia apa pun..sama tah tu me and ia..kana remindkan that bersabar saja, yg penting i know what my niat is and i know who i am. to ia, i'm no fun sbab i tak minum...i am no fun, sbab i tak freely cuba2 try dadah like ia..to ia, i'm such an anti-soc sbab i jarang kn ke club2s ani..

yg sedihnya i have to tinggal dgn ia lagi tahun dpan, coz akhir dah for aku to try cari tempat tinggal lain tahun dpn..right now, i want to make myself busy dgn work- exam prep..supaya nda time to layn ia and ulah2nya..

biarkan tia it seems as if aku kerugian in ia punya mata..i rather kerugian now, than kerugian waktu akhirat nanti. i seriously pcaya aftr kitani graduate, kami nda lagi kawan..biarkan tia, nda rugi not having orang mcm ia sbgai kawn..